Don't panic...

The title itself should state the condition I am going through... life has become office and office has become life. There is no personal life for me in past 3-4 months. I come to office at 9 in the morning work till 12 00 or 1 00 in the night. Go back sleep. Come to office again at 9 00… those 8 hrs in between contains time for all other activities like travel to and fro... sleep… morning activities etc etc……
There also came a time when I had slept just 3-4 hrs in 72 hrs and was continuously in office.

When I shifted to Hyderabad for this project, I was on a book reading spree. Almost a new book every week was the routine. I had just finished “tough Choices” and was halfway on the “Hung By my Family Tree” when I shifted to Hyderabad. That was in mid February.

After that I could complete hardly a few more pages of the book till date.
I have not seen a single movie in past 6 months!!!!
Late nights in the office seem to have become a norm now for me.
There is no special about being home at 3 - 4 am and again coming back to office at 9 00 am.
When I joined this project I have already anticipated these things. And I took plunge for sake of adventure into this project. Just to test my abilities.

I really began to think about impact of this adventure on my personal life when I was in Mumbai for almost 20 days and could meet my parents and Deepa hardly 2-3 times.

I had not anticipated this much impact. My team had not picked up the way they were expected to.

Now that I am single, these things I can afford. But what when I am married? Definitely this is not the kind of life I want. I think I need to take care of this from my next project.

May be in my next job…

Nonetheless, these past few months have been a testing of my endurance. I learned that I can hold nerve when everyone around seems to give up. Keep my head up when everyone around seem to be loosing faith. Things eventually worked out.

I remember the novel “Hitchhiker’s guide to galaxy”. In it the guide had two words written on its front page, “Don’t panic”.

Those two words have become key words for me now a day. No matter what,
“Don’t Panic”

The worst impacted plan seems to be my plan to relocate to Mumbai. Earlier I had planned to shift to Infosys Pune and then from there to Mumbai. But now I am forced to shift to move to Mumbai directly. The only way out I can see is to switch the job.
Parents are planning to get me married by first quarter of next year. So I must be in Mumbai by November – December. Again an emergency action situation; given the fact that I am in Hong Kong.

But again… Don’t panic.

And so the search has begun. As like all the previous situations…I am sure this too will resolve. I just need to keep my head up….